I'm so lost. How can you be with someone and be so happy one day and then all of a sudden someone comes along and ruins it? Ever since Larissa emailed Angel he's been so distant. He doesn't want to admit it. He doesn't want to talk to me about it. I'm not allowed to be a part of it. I'm just... in limbo. I feel like I'm floating in space, lost. I feel heartbroken. I feel alone. I feel discarded.
And I want to be found.
It's like being lost on a deserted island, and you see a plan or a boat in the distance. And you try so hard to get their attention, but they are too far away to notice you. All you can do is watch them pass by knowing you are helpless. That's how I feel at this very moment.
I tried to reach out but to no avail.
What do I do? I'm helpless. I feel so empty.
All I want is reassurance. No. I need reassurance. But instead I get doubt. fear. turmoil.
I hate her. I hate her and I don't even know her. She doesn't know me and yet she's destroying me.
I'm slowing bleeding to death on the floor in front of him and all he can see is her. He doesn't even notice what happening to me.
My flame is starting to dim. This wasn't how it was supposed to be.
I'm a casualty of war that wasn't even mine. I wish someone would rescue me or at least avenge my death.
9:39 p.m. - 2010-04-14
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