Yea so last weekend and the beginning of the week was a total bust. I tried to make it better but I don't think it's working according to plan. The plan was to first and foremost stop feeling sorry for myself. Along with that, play the "stepford" girlfriend role long enough to get me through this trip to Cancun that's already been bought and paid for, then cut all ties.
Angel has seeming tried to do everything within his power to anger me and I have been biting my tongue and minding my words to the extreme x 100. This is of course a super difficult challenge for me.
So let's re-cap on all the obstacles I've had to overcome starting with Friday.
Friday morning we are on FB chatting as we normally do before I leave for work and he's going on and on about how he's horny mostly because I didn't really get to see him last week due to the whole Larissa debacle. So I suggested going to his place Friday night, in which he responds that he was going to be playing WOW all night since we were going to spend sat and sun together. Ok cool.
But then on Friday night, he ends up going out with all the boys to Hooters. Once again, no invite. I've never been in invited in 5 months, so why am I still mad when he continues to exclude me? Who knows.
Anyway, he stays out super late drinking, knowing full well he has to be up at 530am to report to work Saturday morning.
Saturday our plans were this: I was going to make dinner, Ropa Vieja, and we were going to stay in and watch a movie and chill. 1) because we're trying to conserve money for Cancun and 2) because for over a month we had plans to go do paintball early Sunday morning.
Saturday afternoon at about 5pm when he's supposed to be coming over I get the, "I'm too tired and I have to work Sun morning (which is usually his day off) excuse.
I want to say, "I can't believe you're canceling our plans after I have been cooking all day. You went out with your friends when you told me you were going to be at home and now just before you come you tell me this? It's dinner and a movie, it doesn't exactly take a lot of energy. Why can't you come for a few house and go home early and go to bed? It's not like he has to stay here until 1am."
But no, I can't do that, because that would be causing a fight and giving him more of a reason to run into Larissa's arms. So I give the perfect stepford response, "It's ok I understand. You could really use the extra hours too so I'll just meet you tomorrow for paintball"
UGH Kill me.
So I posted a status on FB that said, "Plan A was a flop, time to work on plan B"
And he gets his manties in a wade and message me "I really wish you would stop posting statuses directed towards me" and I'm like SERIOUSLY
How vague and general is that status? That could have meant anything. No one would know it was about him or our night. If I had posted something like, "Angel cancelled our dinner plans" or "Stood up yet again, what to do now?" then Yes, he would have every right to be upset. Like does he think everything revolves around him. The song "You're so vain" instantly pops into my head and I want to sing it as loudly as I can at him.
Sunday morning at 630 I get a text from him that says due to the fact that it has been raining all night we would be able to do paintball which is understandable and I figured would happen. So I asked if he wanted to do something else today. He replies with the "not sure... there isn't much to do on a rainy day" Really? Yes there is you dumb ass is what I would love to reply.
But not I say, "Rainy days are perfect for cuddling on the couch and watching a movie" which is what we were supposed to do Saturday night anyway. And then no response. So I wait about 10 min and reply back with a ? and he says "I read it" WTF does that mean and what WTF kind of response is that? Clearly I'm confused so I replied, "So is that a yes or a no?"
He replies, "I haven't decided" UM HELLO
Of course any normal logical persons next response would be "Do you not want to see me?"
Cause I'm like, if you don't just be straight up with me and tell me. I don't have time for BS games. It's a pretty straight forward question.
To which he replies, "Can you relax" Bitch I am relaxed if he only knew.
So I replied something along the lines of, well I wanted to see you this weekend and I would hope you'd want to see me too."
And then his response is this, "I know but it feels like you are trying to hard to a point where it is annoying, not that you are annoying, just turn it down a notch."
First of all, when has someone been penalized for trying too hard? Second, how is asking to spend a few hours with my boyfriend 1 day out of the week trying too hard?
So I decide fuck it I won't try anything then bitch, and I'm sure he'll complain about that too.
So my response it, Ok have a good day at work.
So I'm not going out of my way to message him what-so-ever today. I already made plans on Friday and I probably will on Saturday and I'm not going to include him and when he questions my response will be this:
I didn't want to smother you and "try to hard" so I'm leaving you alone and doing my own thing.
Put that in your juice box and suck it.
12:44 p.m. - 2010-04-18
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