"You know what they say, once you kill a cow, you gotta make a burger"
This is a line from the TELEPHONE video - it's ridiculous and it's been in my head all day.
So picking up where we last left off..
Sunday when Angel said he was not going to see me and then later that night at about 5pm he texted me and the conversation went something like this:
Angel: Hey lover.. I'm going to watch the magic game with eric and his bro ricky
Me: Ok why are you telling me this?
Angel: Cause I wanted to let you know cause you're my gf
Angel: Would you rather me not say anything and keep you in the dark?
me: No I appreciate it nevermind
Angel: Nevermind?
Me: No Worries
Angel: OMG ok... anyways i've been practicing stringing... u will b impressed next time
Angel: I'm horny ... fyi
me: Oh well
Angel: WTF nervmind
me: What do you want me to say?
Angel: not oh well.. geez
me: It's not my fault that's for sure. I wanted to see you fri but you said no because you were going to be playing wow. Sat you cancelled because of eric and today you didn't want to see me but you're going to hang out with eric AGAIN. so if you're horny then maybe eric can help you out since he gets more of your time than I do.
Me: I'm done trying to reach out to you and all I do is get rejected and pushed aside and then blasted for "trying to hard"
Me: So I guess my only option at this point is to sit here and not try and hope that you will come around.
me: so yea excuse me for feeling like you are adding salt to the wound when you tell me you are going to hang out with eric AGAIN when I can't even get an hour of your time.
me: I didn't know that asking to see my boyfriend and wanting to spend time with him when I only saw him for a few hours barely while at a party last week was being annoying. Because I wish I had someone who cared enough about me to want to see me and just tell me that they want to fuck me.
Angel: Babe please
Angel: It's not even about the sex...
Me; wow after everything that I just said to you, all you focused on is the last sentence? Nice. Have fun tonight I'm sure you will have a blast. Don't mind me.
So later that night he texted me when he got home
Angel: Just wanted to let you know I'm home.. good night sexy mamma
WHATEVER DUDE
So today he texts me Good morning at about 11:15 am and I didn't reply
A few minutes later he texts again:
Angel: What would you like me to cook for you on Saturday?"
Nope didn't reply -
and hour later
Angel: Not talking to me? I can't email you cuase there is no power in the house. Teco is replacing a transformer.
about 30 min later I reply
me: Sorry monday's are busy for me and when I have a majority of my meetings
me: I don't know about Saturday surprise me
Then at about 2pm he sends another message:
Angel: I got angel a cake if you want to come by after work. today is his bday
me: I can't today but thank you for the offer
Angel: ok you're welcome
Angel: R u mad at me
DING DING DING DING DING
I don't reply so at around 5pm he sends another message:
Angel: Well I hope you talk to me after work.
So I have to pretend a little because I still have 47 days remaining until our vacation that's already paid for and I need to wait until then, but I'm thinking of breaking up with him once we are in mexico and ruining his vacation =)
So I called him to show that I called, but I only let it ring 2 times, enough to show a missed call but not enough to give him a chance to answer.
Then when he calls back of course I'm short w/ my conversation and not going out of my way to make conversation cause I'm not in the mood to get into it but at the same time I have a million things I want to say.
Of course, cause I can't hold back I basically tell him how I feel. I'm like if you don't want to be with me let me know and yadda yadda yadda
End outcome, he said he had nothing to say to defend his actions and that he's been "moody" and I guess taking it out on me?? Whatever, sorry excuse. Bottom line, I'm not going out of my way to do shit and I hope these next 47 days go by quickly so I can get this over with.
10:22 p.m. - 2010-04-19
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